The Direction of Dreams

Hello, friends!


Today was actually a pretty good one for me! I feel like I have had a black cloud of doom over me the past few weeks as I continuously get more and more discouraged with my slowing running speeds and lack of any job leads.

In case you haven’t been reading long, I am a recent college graduate looking for a job in civil engineering. Along with my two part-time jobs that fill my days, I started my own side business to do freelance sub-consulting for transportation engineers and urban planners. It’s a difficult process that doesn’t reap great financial rewards (yet), but the experience and contacts is really what I’m after!


This afternoon, I was presented with the opportunity to meet with a Professional Engineer (PE) who used to own part of a MAJOR civil engineering firm. Essentially, he does exactly what I want to do one day, and it made my day to get a chance to talk with him for 20 minutes. I was there on an errand for another client, but feel like I made a great impression! He might have more freelance work for me! Woo-hoo!


He told me to keep in touch, and I left with a smile. I walked straight out of the meeting…and straight into Pinkberry. Without even flinching. Hmm…


I’m a HUGE fan of tart frozen yogurt. I loved the pomegranate flavor with strawberries and honey granola.




It was a refreshing afternoon treat without guilt.




Once I returned home, I applied to a few more jobs (I got a second wind of motivation) and worked on improving my cover letter. Big thanks to Lauren who proof-read my letter! She teaches a class in cover letter writing, and offered to give me some pointers. Thanks again! 🙂


I whipped up a quick meal between tasks:




  • Sweet Potato with cinnamon
  • Grilled Chicken
  • steamed broccoli


This afternoon, I got to thinking. I keep getting so discouraged that I still haven’t had a single job interview. I get discouraged that I am not running as fast as I used to. The negative thoughts in my head are literally dragging me down and effecting other aspects of my life.


I asked myself, “What if, instead of getting discouraged that I haven’t met my end goal, I appreciated the little progress that I make each day? “


A few months ago, running 9.3 miles would have been completely out of the question. But with the baby steps of running a tiny bit more each week, I was finally able to complete my goal. As I continue to increase my mileage, I know that I will gain my speed back. This is also true in my career! I keep making more contacts, getting my name out there, and getting more freelance work.


I’m heading in the right direction, and it’s about time I started being proud of my efforts! It’s all about baby steps. 🙂


Quote of the Day:

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you’ve imagined."

-Henry David Thoreau


Are you heading in the direction of your dreams?

❤ MegaNerd

23 Responses

  1. As a fellow engineer , I can tell you , that it’s frustrating but do not give up , I could not find a job for almost a year and half , before I could get one . One little tip that helped me was , I am an electrical engineer , I am sure just like Institute of electrical engineers , there is societies for civil engineering too , try attend chapter meetings in your area , to get to know proffessionals in the area you work in . I found my job believe it or not through a contact at a society meeting . don’t give up … it might be hard and frustrating … it will all be OKAY in the end , if it’s not then it’s NOT the END… 🙂 Hope it cheers you … Congratulations on the 15K …

  2. Great outlook Megan! What you are going through is completely normal so keep your head up.. I have been out of school for 3 years and sometimes I feel like I am back at step one… Just remember everything happens for a reason and and everything WILL work out!

  3. Join your college alumni. They will hire someone from their Alma mater first. Do you have a local alumni club in your area? If so, join and attend a few functions.

  4. Keep trying, networking, getting applications out there…I know it’s frustrating – been there, done that – but don’t lose hope. Something will happen! The waiting sucks, but you’re being proactive which is exactly what you need to be doing. You’re smart and talented, believe that and someone will see it and take a chance. 🙂

  5. You will get there. Just keep going. I have a journal I kept all through college and it’s so weird to go back and read how stressed I was about graduating, finding a job, figuring out what I was going to do with my life. Just like you will one day with this blog post! Keep your head up. It will all work out.

  6. Don’t give up on the job search! You’ll find something eventually 🙂

  7. Don’t give up girl!! I just graduated in May and I spent a very frustrating Spring and Summer applying for jobs and getting few bites. I was looking for a paralegal position, but started to feel discouraged and began to apply for a lot of jobs that didn’t really utilize my degree. This month my luck turned around, and i had two interviews for paralegal positions, and was actually offered both of the jobs. I started one of those jobs today! Its a tough market, don’t get discouraged.

  8. I know what it is like to lose your strength and endurance in running. I am coming back from a very serious injury and it is hard not to get discouraged. Chin up girl. Everything will unfold as it should!

  9. You are amazing! I am so impressed that as a young, recent grad you are taking the bull by the horns and starting your own business. Congratulations.

    Running fitness will come back- I promise. The trick (in my opinion) is not to let it get you down, and to reassess your standards. I used to run 8:00 -9:00 miles in training, and now it’s more like 10:00 plus. But instead of constantly being discouraged by the 10:00 miles, I focus on the improvements from week to week, or on the increased distances, or on just plain feeling better.

  10. Megan, you are going to do great! I know it can become so discouraging when you put yourself out there and you don’t get anything in return, but I promise you, timing is everything. Maybe not on your time, but amazing things will happen. You are so dedicated, strong and have the ability to prove to so many how amazing you are! 🙂 Good luck girl.

  11. Love your realization!! Last night in yoga, my teacher said something like “Stop trying to control every situation, stop trying to do more, stop trying to be more. Try to JUST BE. Be content with where you are right now. Accept that you are enough. Yesterday, you did your best for yesterday. Today, you are doing your best for today.” I loved it!! We can only do so much, we just have to be ok with where we are!

  12. So gad you’re making progress! You definitely should be proud of yourself for running so much! So many people would love to be able to go that far. I haven’t accomplished it yet but am making my way.

  13. Hang in there, kiddo! Positive thinking does wonders and you are right on track to find a wonderful opportunity in your field!!

  14. I’m going through a similar situation so I can completely and totally understand where you’re coming from. Some days are really hard but the important thing is to keep pushing!

  15. That’s awesome you started your own business! I’m graduating college in a few months and I’m already discouraged by the job market.

  16. I love this post, and your conclusions 🙂 Not an engineer but I have a similar experience with teaching. I find that I often have to focus on the little victories. Focusing on what HAS gone well inevitably encourages me to develop what’s positive rather than harp on the negative.

  17. I just found your blog and I love it.

    I’m slowly heading towards my dream. I’m a college student, so I’m going in the decently right direction hehe.

  18. I agree – this is a great outlook! Keep up the focus and determination.

    PS- that Pinkberry looks amazing, even at 950 in the morning!!

  19. Great posts! I have been feeling discouraged lately too! Thanks for reminding me that I need to celebrate the baby steps that I am making towards my end goal. After all, Rome was not built in a day 🙂 Good LUck

  20. Congrats on your run!

    I’m not sure if you are interested in jobs in Chicago, but my dad is sr. vice president of an Engineering firm (he himself is a civil engineer). I’m not sure if they are currently hiring but here is their website:

    Not sure if it will be much help, but hey, figured it can’t hurt! I know they have projects rolling in and have been hiring people in the last few years.

  21. That’s one of my favorite quotes too, it reminds me to keep my course straight and not get sidetracked with any minor mistakes I make.

  22. …Sort of. I’m pretty much in your EXACT position (despite having graduated two years ago and been a working girl for the past two years).

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