Don’t Forget to Breathe

I forgot how much I enjoyed swimming!

 

 

After work yesterday, I decided to hit the pool. Reading Ashley’s Half- Ironman recap motivated me to go for a swim.

 

I swam 1000m in a little under 30 minutes. I have REALLY been thinking about training for my first triathlon, but I don’t know if I can handle the training with all my other stuff going on.

 

I have been feeling extremely stressed out lately with all that I am juggling, including:

  • Working 30-35 hours at my main job
  • Working 10-12 hours at my second job
  • Taking 6 credit hours
  • Blogging
  • Thinking about life after college/Career searching
  • Boyfriend/Friends

 

It felt good to be in the water. The pool was quiet and I liked the feeling of peace around me.I feel like I barely have time to breathe these days. I know that it will pay off in the end. It has to, right?

 

Mark’s schedule is just as jam-packed as mine (minus job searching and blogging) so by the time Friday night rolled around we were drained.
We did muster up enough energy to make homemade pizza!

 

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We used Publix Bakery dough, added olive oil, marinara sauce, tomatoes, green peppers, mozzerella, and oregano! It was delicious!

 

Somehow brownies appeared in my oven (hmmm…MARK!!) and we shared a bowl of browines and vanilla ice cream. We were “ultimate fatties” last night.

 

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YUM!!

 

I’m off to work this afternoon, but I have a trail bike ride planned for this evening, if the weather permits!

 

How do you get through the most stressful times in your life? I keep telling myself to just keep swimming..but don’t forget to breathe!

 

❤ MegaNerd

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Sour Milk and Explosions in the Sky

Yesterday was a busy, busy day for me. I worked until 8:00pm and stayed up until well after midnight studying.

 

Dinner was provided at my second job, and I am never one to refuse free food! I have only been to Tijuana flats one other time, and feel a little daunted by the large menu. On twitter, I asked for healthy and delicious options at this Mexican chain.

 

Per Ryan’s recommendation, I ordered the regular size burrito (only I got black bean instead of veggie) on a whole wheat tortilla with no cheese, no sour cream, lettuce, tomato, and added a side of guacamole.

 

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It was definitely a manageable size, unlike so many other fast-food type burrito places. I didn’t feel overly stuffed, even after eating all but about three chips! It was really yummy, too!

 

This morning, I am REALLY tired. Working two jobs, blogging, maintaining my grades, trying to exercise and stay healthy, looking for a job (career/engineering-related) and trying to make time for friends and family is getting to me! I’m sure many people can relate. I feel like this will only make me a stronger person in the long run.

 

I had a mini-melt down when I got home last night. I love having alone time, but honestly coming home to an empty apartment (I live alone) is really sad. I just don’t think I will ever fully get used to it, even though I feel like a really independent person. Sometimes I just need a hug, and I miss having roommates (or my best friend down the hall!) as a built-in support group.

 

I took a break and watched the season premiere of the HILLS on MTV. It made me miss BFF Debbie…Luckily she is coming to visit exactly one month from today! 😀

 

I have my first final at 1:00pm today. Unlike previous semesters, where I live off CLIF bars and Coke Zero (bad!) I took the effort to make a “decent” breakfast. Unfortunately I don’t have much in the way of produce, and my milk has gone sour. I did the best that I could and made blackberry jam and peanut butter toast with an apple.

 

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I ate my breakfast and drank my coffee while studying…

 

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…and listening to Pandora on my iPhone. I have it on “Explosions in the Sky” Radio. It helps me focus on studying because it is soothing and has very minimal words.

 

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Wow! This has been quite a long morning post! I guess sometimes a girl just has a lot to say!

 

❤ MegaNerd

I Admit.

My blog schedule is out of control. I apologize. I feel like I’m running around like a chicken with its head cut off!

 

Breathe. Blog. In that order.

 

Yesterday was another work day. However, I did get to take a lunch break to visit some of my favorite people!

 

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Caitlin, Ashley, Ryan, and Katy H. met up for yoga and then headed to meet me and Meghann at Infusion Tea.

 

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Random Tuesday Blogger Meet-Up! 😀

 

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I was all hyped up and stressed out when I arrived. I had exactly 20 minutes to wolf everything down.

 

The other girls were calm and glowing from yoga. I really need to try this stuff. I need some peace in my life. 🙂

 

On to the food.

 

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I ordered the lunch combo, which includes any 1/2 salad, sandwich, wrap, or soup.

 

I stuck with my favorite roasted pears salad

 

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…and tried the hummus, avocado, tomato, spinach sandwich. I was NOT a fan. It was way too bland and I only ate a bite or two. Not for me!!!

 

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Oh well. I still enjoyed the company!

 

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On the car on the way back to work I munched on an apple. I was still pretty hungry after lunch.

 

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Throughout the afternoon, I broke nibbles of a CLIF bar, and then ate a banana right before I left.

 

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I packed my bag before I left for work with a change of clothes. I am thinking about leave a bag of workout clothes and shoes in my car so that I can work out anytime I get a chance. (School/Work/Home are all on opposite sides of town by a long shot.)

 

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My right knee was feeling better after three days off. I had been icing, stretching, foam rolling, and taking anti-inflammatories. I figured I would test the waters.

 

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It was so nice to get out into the fresh air after being cooped up in an office all day!

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I ran a total of 4.0 miles:

 

  • Mile 1 = Warm-up at a 9:20 pace
  • Miles 2 + 3 = Speedy awesomeness at 7:45 pace
  • Mile 4 = knee started to hurt…

 

 

I picked up a knee strap at Track Shack the other night. I told the guy there what was going on with my knee, and he recommended this to me. It puts pressure right on the painful spot, and it really seemed to help. I felt slight pain but it wasn’t debilitating like it has been before.

 

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Judging by the amount of pain I am in today. I think it’s time to admit that I am injured. Shooting pain, not being able to bend my knee, and feeling like I’m going to burst into tears is not really my thing.

 

 

I’m officially NOT running until further notice. It’s time to take a break.

 

Boo.

I can’t talk about it anymore, it makes me sad. Maybe in another post.

 

I came home and made a lovely dinner: Grilled Zucchini, mushroom and herb couscous, and tilapia.

 

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I like having nights off to eat at home. Last semester I ate on campus mostly every night, or had to wait until midnight to eat. So thankful that’s over.

 

I think post-marathon injuries are common. I’ll deal with it!

 

❤ MegaNerd

Reset Button

This semester is FINALLY over.

 

I’m not going to lie, it was my hardest semester so far. Not only because my actually courses were hard, but I realized that I took on too much.

 

I am determined NOT to give up. I wrote myself a little motivational note, since I’ve been feeling like an epic failure lately. It’s true though, having one bad semester does not determine my self-worth!

 

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I don’t think my body knows what’s going on right now. I have been eating/not-eating at random hours, sleeping 6 hours or less for the past two weeks, and feeling stressed out to the max. Living on CLIF bars alone has left me with no energy and I’m starting to feel like I’m getting sick.

 

I woke up the past couple of mornings with absolutely NO motivation to run. It’s so weird for me to think about, but I feel like the running season is over. (See this post.) I honestly cannot wait to run this marathon and take a break from scheduled/forced running.

 

My body has never felt more worn down…ever. I still feel strong and fit, but I know that I haven’t been fueling properly or sleeping enough. Exams and other life stresses have really taken a toll on me. Waking up early to run tons of miles is hard work when you are already exhausted from school.

 

Now that I’m done with the semester, I have more time to focus on taking care of myself. I have my last long [very] long run, a 22-miler, scheduled for tomorrow with Caitlin. I’m resting up today to get ready for the biggest run of my life (until the marathon).

 

I’m officially hitting the “RESET” button. It’s time to change my attitude and remember why I want to be an engineer, why I want to run a marathon, and why I get out of bed every day.

 

It was nice to eat a breakfast that did not consist of a CLIF bar. 😉

 

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Simple combo of:

  • multigrain cheerios
  • vanilla Oikos
  • ground flax seed
  • blueberries

 

Even though school is over, I still have plenty of things I want to get done today. Like relaxing! 😀

 

Do you ever feel like you need to hit the reset button? How do you start fresh when things have been going badly?

 

❤ MegaNerd

It’s Almost Over…

First off, I just want to say thank you to all of your encouraging comments/e-mails about my rough ending semester. It really reminded me that I’m not a failure, and I can get through this!!

 

One final exam down… three more to go!

 

YIKES! I have a lot of work to do between now and Monday!

 

Like I mentioned yesterday, I’ve been living off:

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Seriously, a repeat of the same stuff every day!!! I just don’t have time to think of stuff other than school.

 

I did manage to cook for myself ONCE this week so far. Yesterday for lunch, I made baked tofu.

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I remember using Caitlin’s recipe a while back, but couldn’t remember the exact measurements. Basically I mixed together:

  • honey
  • evoo
  • paprika
  • chill powder
  • pepper
  • tiny bit of salt
  • sesame seeds

I coated the individual pieces of tofu with the mixture, and baked for 20 minutes at 400 degrees. (Again, I was winging it… and it burnt a bit, but tasted great!)

Along with it, I made broccoli and whole wheat couscous.

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It was the best meal I’ve had in a while!

 

I can’t wait for this semester to be over. It’s been a really rough one. If you’re taking finals this week too, GOOD LUCK!!!

 

Please tell me I’m not the only one who lives off Clif bars and coffee during finals week. It’s crunch time, people!!!

 

❤ MegaNerd

Smack in the Face

Remember a few weeks ago when I managed to forget an entire exam?

 

Well… apparently it can get worse than that.

 

Today was really rough. I made the decision to cut my losses (Concrete Design) and focus on the classes I still have a shot at making good grades in.

 

I bit off more than I could chew this semester. I didn’t give enough time or effort into anything, and now everything is slacking. My grades, my health, my relationships… everything has gone WAY downhill. It was fine at first, but things just kept snowballing.

 

Today was most definitely a smack in the face.

 

I will now be graduating in August 2010, since I have to make up a design class. I’ve never failed a class, but it’s not the end of the world. I currently feel humiliated and like an epic failure, but I’ve learned some valuable lessons from this.

 

1. Don’t take on more than I can handle- Senior Design classes are not meant to be taken with 5 other hard classes

 

2. Be organized. My desk looks like this:

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My filing system is stacks of papers on the floor…

 

3.Ask help when I need it. Major personality flaw.

 

4. Figure out what I want, so I can focus on getting it. This one’s the biggie.

 

Later…

I came home to a Jason making dinner, which was a shocker. I melted like butter in July, and started sobbing again. He knew that I had a really bad day, and he was trying to make me feel better.

 

He made chicken parmesan

 

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spaghetti

 

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…and (x-treme garlic) steamed squash.

 

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I told him it was the nicest thing he’s ever done for me. I meant it as a compliment, but he thought it was an insult. OOOPPPSSS.

 

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He did everything all on his own! I’m very grateful.

 

I need to get back to studying. I have a final tomorrow at 4pm!

 

❤ MegaNerd

Living on Campus

It’s down to the final two weeks.

 

Finals are next week, and that means it’s CRUNCH time! I will probably be packing lunch/dinner every single day and eating in the library.

 

Yesterday, I spent ALL day on campus. I had lab at 7:30 am, and stayed until after my last class ended at 10:30pm. I was actually pretty productive, and I hope to continue the week on that trend!

 

I started my morning with a bowl of cereal:

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  • 1 cup Trader Joe’s cereal
  • banana
  • 1/2 cup vanilla soy milk
  • 1 TBL ground flax

 

I was in a rush to get out the door, so I packed a hodge-podge of food.

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I really had no plan of what meal was what when I packed it.

 

I ended up eating it all at random times, but since I was busy I don’t really remember when. I never felt starving/too hungry so that was great.

 

My main meal was a turkey and provolone sammie on grain bread:

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Pink Lady apple (so tart!) and a clementine:

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Trader Joe’s Sweet Potato Chips:

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Finally found it! The Stonyfield Pumpkin Pie Yogurt:

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….which I topped with some homemade trail mix:

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My trail mix included:

  • Honey Roasted Soynuts
  • Pepitas (pumpkin seeds)
  • golden raisins
  • goji berries
  • dark chocolate chunks

 

(I also had a 1/2 of a subway sandwich that my friend shared with me, but I left my camera at home).

 

It’s going to be a crazy two weeks! I have a design project, two quizzes, 5 final exams, and a half marathon!

It’s time to get cracking!

❤ MegaNerd